by the death of heroes

Another bloody update... I've been trying to avoid posting here again until I have time enough to write a post of substance and import... however, such a post is still a barely visible spec on the distant horizon hued with the red of another sunset. I'm left with a halfhearted and very distracted longing for the days when time was my abundance, and this blog - this place of calm security - was my refuge from interaction and falsity.

These days...
-work has inevitably taken it's place of firmhanded rulership over my somewhat reluctant and morose days.
-I've moved out of my parents home (incase any of you who know me have failed to happen upon this information)
-Today I'm sick. Tomorrow.... Hopefully not.
-I have an awesome group of people in my life.... Again I'm left wondering why on earth God would think it reasonable to give someone like myself such amazing friendships.
-The sun is shining beautifully here in the nicest place on earth, and hopefully sometime soon I'll have the oppertunity to swim in a local waterhole.
-I'm itching to play paintball again.
-I miss the beauty and peace of where my parents live.
-I am finding myself engrossed in the realization of how amazing my siblings are.... and how proud I am of them.
-I am finished paying off my car... and still enjoying the blessing of mobility.
-I am learning still to know God... and thirsting more and more for intimacy with Him.
-Quietness and trust is a virtue greatly overlooked.
-I'm out of time and patience.... I'm going to get something done.

May God bless and keep each of you.
Until the reality of a yet far-off moment....

Monty.